The Love of God

When you give into despair you may not know. You may find yourself spending longer time trying to derive pleasure from things you feel may numb you. For some it may be alcohol, For me it is movies and tv series. Sometimes I lose myself in the characters. But what happens when that doesn’t work as it happened to me. I had to search deep to discover the source of it. You see, human want is insatiable. That was the first thing I learnt in Economics. No matter how much you have got, how far you are up on the ladder, you will always want more. I thought of God and how his love is so pure and abundant. How he moves things just for our good. How someone as great as he is can love us as proud, selfish, greedy as we often get. I mean, how can he stoop so low without losing his greatness. 

Our father loses nothing by loving us. Before I digress, what can be as valuable as his love for us? 

I have decided, hard as it maybe that I will hold on to that love  and be grateful for the things I have because there will always be something we need. His love ensures that we are on the right path. His love is a silent assurance for has he not said that he knows the plan he has for us. 

Finally Romans 8:38 assures us that nothing can seperate is from God’s Love.

The power of a smile

I have been having a not so nice week,  I had an accident that could have been avoided. So it's not surprising that I have been having mood swings. I was blaming it on everyone, I got so irritable and sensitive, picking up vibes that were non existent from other people. I kept going at it until I got into a bus and the driver smiled at me. He didn't have to, and then it struck me that life is about perception. It's about what you make of it. What if someone was being nasty, it's on them not on you. Why waste time thinking about how they spoke to you. You can shake it off and make excuses for them. That though is easier said than done. It can only come from a place of peace and from following one of the greatest commandments; love your neighbors as yourself. So the next time you feel inclined to respond with a scathing remark, choose to excuse them.lastly bless people with a smile because you don't have to.

The Praise singer

Maybe this post should be titled the worship leader.
I was one of those in the praise team in Nigeria so I have seen both sides. I have experienced moments where the crowd refused to be moved by our ministrations or the time they were so moved that worship went on longer. Sometimes we are fixated on singing to impress the crowd, but that's not the end game. Is the song ministering to us, how are we being transformed by Jesus. Are we giving heart felt praise to the king of kings? No doubt it's wonderful when the crowd gets carried along but we should be be careful not to play into pleasing them all the time. Our aim is to start with ourselves, make sure you are holy, make sure that our lives are reflective of how grateful we are to the maker. Next, we should channel our praise God, hoping with Faith that it is acceptable to him. The people are not blind, they can feel real stuff. I wrote a song from an inner place " let my praises like a river surround you" I just wrote it because I wanted to express how grateful I was. Somehow it made the choir's line up of worship songs. They were impressed and so it was from that place I decided to write another worship song, of course that didn't go so well. I just felt like sharing this. Remember Love God, love your Neighbors. Shalom!

Musings of a Nigerian Immigrant

It's with a wave of sadness that the truth permeates your being that this is not home. Travelling to America has been romanticized that you fail to make your enquiries about how things work here. Your Aunties and Uncles might have complained of how difficult it is living Overseas. But we failed to see it, to us they were being stingy and uncooperative. So it's with this recollection that I now understand what they were saying beneath the thinly veiled talks. It's so difficult to succeed especially coming from a country where mediocrity is praised. I use to feel upset at people that come back complaining about how the system in Nigeria is faulty but now I understand. Nobody who wants to be someone significant is content being average. It's either they rely on their white privilege they combine that with hard work. This is just my morning musing. Somehow something has got to give. Shoutout to my fellow immigrants struggling to be outstanding. Thanks for reading.

pentecostalism (part 1)

In the second year of university I discovered something wonderful. I thought I had seen it all. I spent the most of first year and exploring cities and other things my sheltered upbringing prevented me from getting in contact with. It was actually a coincidence, I had woken up late that I couldn't get a seat in the hall where the catholic church held its services on Sunday. My room mate and her friend then decided on a whim to attend the church opposite the school. "lets just go in to see what the fuss in the Pentecostal church is about". That was how my second education began and boy was it a pleasure filled ride. From the melodious worship songs to the insightful explanation of the word of God, Sunday mornings suddenly became fun. That Is what the church experience should be: a combination of reflecting on the Trinity, praising God, having fun as well. The Pentecostal church was named after the event commemorating the descent of the holy spirit upon the followers of Jesus Christ. The key word is the holy spirit. The bible says " ...where the spirit of the lord is, there is liberty" 2 Corinthians 3:17. This means that the place of the Holy spirit in the church is really important. That is how to know that you are in the right place, you feel it right within you; that peace, that joy . Things might still be bad with your finances or your health but the holy spirit revitalizes you. That is my own take on that.  Now, with so many fake churches and  preachers its difficult to bring up Christ without people being skeptical. The truth is, if you open up your heart you can rightly discern the true message of God. The bible is also our template. So the next time you disagree with a message, open the good book.
Thanks for humoring me by reading, i will try to update the blog more. Ciao!

The Good kind Of Change

So I have been away from my blog for reasons I can't fathom. a lot has happened since November. I gave birth to my son on the 14th of october and it has been something else. I now understand why mothers post endless pictures of their babies. I am sure my friends are sick of me already but i dont care. Sometimes I wake up not believing that I am actually a mother.God has been so good to me deeming me worthy to receive such an adorable baby. I also understand how protective mothers get because I am wanting to protect him all the time. Take for instance someone commenting on a feature of his that they don't like, I swear I could box your ears if you are near me, lol. he is just so perfect for me.
so that being said while i am settling in to the rigors of motherhood, i am looking forward to advancing my career. It  keeps me awake thinking of the hurdles ahead of me but like the newsboys sang; 'God's not dead, he is dwelling on the inside, roaring like a lion'
shalom!

where is your treasure?

A few years ago, I was asked this question by my pastor in a church meeting. I didn't have an answer then. He said that where your treasure lies, that's where the heart is. So now I have an answer to that question. I love God, I owe him a lot, that's where my treasure lies. I also love medicine, I didn't understand how much until I was close to losing my place in school due to some issues with admission. Long story short, our treasure is our passion. That's the force that keeps driving us, propelling us to do better. So discover what yours is, I would like us to be passionate about God, but baby steps, I'm not even there yet. Xoxo😘